うなだれている私に自信と力を Confidence and power to me who is drooling

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 これはたしか嫁さんがノロウィルスにかかった時、私は全開なのにも関わらず食品会社の為1週間出勤してはいけないという夢のような時に書いたものです。イラストノートって雑誌の中にあったものを書きましたが現物とは比べ物になりません。 だってプロだもの…あの時は本当に夢だった。看病だって大したことはしていないしまず出かけられないし!!出かけるったってパチンコぐらいなものですから有意義な時間を過ごしたってなものです。しかも有給扱いですからたまらない!!あれが最初で最後の夏休みでした…よく考えてみれば…有給なんて今では40日丸々残ってるわ…
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でも1週間で書けたのはたった二枚でした。また1週間ほど休めたら書きたいな。そういえば小説も書いたことがありました。結局今は書けていませんがそれも再開したいです。なにもなくてもかまわない、誰一人読まず自己満でかまわない。ただ終わりたかった。どんなつまらなくったってかまわない。確か宇宙兄弟という漫画で1位とビリの差なんて大したことはない…ビリだったものとゴールしなかったものの差に比べれば…的なことがあった。そうなのだ なんにせよゴールして1つ何かを掴めるはず。それが自信につながるはず…いつだってうなだれて生きているわけにはいかない。守るものがあっちにもこっちにもあるのだから
 私には 甥っ子ちゃんが三人います。幼稚園 小学校3年 中学校1年の3人ですがやはり中学生になると遊んではくれません。仕方にないことでこの頃が一番刺々しい時期ですからね。なんでも時期があるように、子供にも時期があります。2番目の小学校3年生はパワフルな男の子で体を使う遊びでもまぁ痛い…負けることもしばしばですから要注意です。手押し相撲でちょっと油断したら負けてしまいました。(笑)格闘ゲームとかでも本気でやって負ける時があるからたまに イラッとしてしまい、次ボコボコにしてやろうとしてまた負けて イラッとして熱くなってまた負けてなんてことがごくたまにあるから注意ですね。なんにせよまだかわいいです。
 そして幼稚園の女の子が一番厄介です。私の娘は2才ですが早くもお友達ではなくてライバルに近い為、いつも喧嘩してます。私の娘も甥っ子ちゃんも負けない性格でうちの娘が
「自分!! 自分!!」
と相手のものを欲しがったら最後でお姉ちゃんとして渡さねばいけませんがそこまで成長してるわけもなく、たまに渡さなかったりすると娘が泣く…渡した所で自分がつまらなくなるため何一つ良いことがないまま終わる為たちがわるくなぜかこっちが緊張してしまいます。まぁ仲良く遊んでる時も無きにしも非ずなんですけど… また娘のかわいさとして甥っ子ちゃんと遊びすぎると焼きもちを焼くことがあります。これが可愛い!
私のお父さんだぞ!!っとばかりに泣く娘にいつまで好きでいてくれるのかななんて思います。子供たちはみんなかわいいです!!
I am always losing while smoking a cigarette. At that time I'm always watching the sky ... This picture is a balcony of my house. It is what the world refers to. Certainly, look at the sky with a mild seven (now Mobius ??) ... There was advertisement adequate but there is only the sky when smoking on the veranda (laugh) I think that many people view the phone It got tired somehow. I do not want to think about anything when smoking cigarettes ~ I think at this time. I gave you Icos cheaply and gave it a couple of months ago ... I did lose it ... I was lucky to have it in my car to suck it Although my grades did not work I do not go well Well I think that it will be worn out everyday Around this time I know what kind of work it is hard work Everyone Let's do our best not to let it down Do it
In case
This is what I wrote when my wife hugs Noro virus, when I was like a dream that I should not go to work for a week because of a food company despite being fully open. I wrote what I found in a magazine but illustration notes do not compare with the actual thing. Because even professional ... that time was a real dream. Nurse does not do anything serious and I can not go out first! ! Because going out is about pachinko, it means that I spent a meaningful time. Besides, it is treated as paid, so it's irresistible! ! That was the first and last summer vacation ... If you think carefully ... there are forty days left to have paid bonus ...

But I could write only two in a week. I also want to write if I rest for about a week. By the way I had written a novel. After all I can not write now but I want to restart it. There is no need to do anything, no one reads it and it is self-sufficient. I just wanted to finish. I do not care whatever is boring. There is no big deal about the difference between the first place and the birth in the manga named the universe brothers in fact ... compared to the difference between what was a birch and what did not goal ... there were things like .... That's right whatever you goal you should be able to grasp something. That should lead to confidence ... You can not always fall alive. Because there are also things to protect
I have three nephews. Three people at kindergarten elementary school 3rd year junior high school 1 year, but I will not play as a junior high school student again. It is a time that is most stingy this time by not having any choice. There is a time for children as there is a time like anything. The second elementary school third grader is a powerful boy and it does not hurt to play with the body even well ... It is cautionful because it is often too losing. I was defeated if I got a bit of a hand-forged sumo wrestler. (Laugh) Because fighting games do seriously and losing time, sometimes I will make it sore occasionally, it is warning to lose again as I try to make it to the next Bokoboko and it gets hot as Ira and sometimes loses it again occasionally. I am still cute at all.
And kindergarten girls are the most troublesome. My daughter is two years old but he is always fighting because he is not a friend but a rival soon. My daughter and her nephew are not defeated, my daughter
"Myself !! Myself !!"
When you want an opponent 's thing, you have to hand it as your sister at the end but you can not grow up to that point and my daughter will cry occasionally ... Because I become boring at the place I handed over, There is something bad for us to finish without it. Why is it nervous. Well, I do not even have time to play with each other even though I'm playing with each other, but ... If I play too much with my nephew as my daughter's cuddly, I will bake my grill. This is cute!

My daddy! ! I wonder how long you will love to crying daughter for a long time. Everyone is cute! !